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I'm in flushing, will be here for less than a week. I've been to a shelter, the people there are terrible, and the service is practiy non existent. Even if someone told the staff that they didn't eat for a day, they wouldn't give you food, because they rather follow a schedule. I assume that even if you had told them that you didn't eat for a week, they wouldn't break their schedule. They give out food times a day, if you're "properly registered" in the shelter, and an example of what a meal is like there, often times the meals are a slice of cheese and and two slices of bread. I starve in there. A person can lose their bed simply because they miss a sign-in sheet, which is obligatory daily. The smell of is in the bedrooms so it's practiy impossible to sleep, even without the smell of , any given guy is blasting rap on a radio or something, while a bunch of other guys are threatening each other and talking about how swag they are. The curfew/schedule/obligation system makes it practiy impossible to get employed in a realistic time and fashion, there is no nearby computers for job-searching, the neighborhood doesn't really have places that are hiring, as I've walked about a in each direction, the place provides metro- only upon a series of appointments and qualification toward the issuing of the , meaning, even if you need the for a job related trip, they won't give it to you, because it's not part of their specific plan. The environment and conditions are counter-productive to efforts in trying to get employed. It's not safe and it's not sanitary, and I'm talking about mental hygiene. I've been applying to any job, like dish-washing, cashiering, bussing, things like that, I don't have a college degree and it's not easy to finish one without interest in studies, and I am not compelled to have an academic . I intend on simply working those said woman wants real sex Andreas Pennsylvania types of jobs. I enjoyed working amongst friendly coworkers in a restaurant recently, I'd be willing to continue in that kind of thing. What I need is a computer, internet, food (I'm was for a painless method. I'm open to sex, but not homosexual sex, also, I don't really want sex right now, as much as I want to simply wake up to a better world, where there is no , poverty, bullying, and things like that. Actually, I don't think sex will help me anyways. I want to be with someone but long story short, it doesn't seem like she's coming back, so I'd prefer to wait for god to reunite us, or erase my memory or something and match me up with someone in the "afterlife". I'm really traumatized from a lost love. I was all about being with 1 person, as soul mates, in destiny. I'm not attractive. My skin and are in poor condition. I have an oriental ethnic look. My speech is not completely free from impediments. My singing voice is garbage. If I had the power, I would enforce a good onto people. I would make sure people get fed, housed, and clothed, and to enjoy a share of technology, like computers, and video . But, it seems like that power won't be in my hands any time soon. I really tried to put my thought into action, I mean, I thought I should simply stay in the shelter and follow the plan until I get employed, but it's easier said than done. The other people there are too hostile, too threatening, and too negative, so that it's incredibly counter-effective to my efforts toward emotionally and mentally getting employed. That is why I am asking others, for a decent environment where I can actually look for and apply to jobs online at a realistic , to get employed at a realistic rate of effort per time elapsed. I can't promise that I will get hired, I do intend on applying to jobs, but it's the employer's decision whether they hire me or not. I've applied to jobs a year at a time, without getting employed; this happened more than once. If your place is full of bugs, I'd ask that you get some bug spray, because I don't think I can stay in a place where my body is covered in bed bugs- I've been in a place something like that, recently. I realize this is a website that's infamous for bad encounters. I have less than 7 days till I'm out of the place where I currently stay, and then I have to make a choice of going back to the shelter or convincing the government to put me to sleep, or arrest me and give sentence me to capital punishment for attempted murder of myself. This life really is unpleasant, but as long as I'm to be alive, I think I guess I'd eat food, play classical instruments, play video , and we can do that together, or I can leave after I get employed and compensate you for your assistance. Or if you're someone with the components of lethal and are generous enough to distribute it into my body, then, me for that, too.