Abandonment w4m
I wake up from a dream, and I realize you're gone. I drive to work in a fog, make it through the day (somehow), and wander through the grocery store. As soon as I get to my car, the tears flow. I find myself crying so hard I can barely breathe. I sob, I gasp, I heave. The pain is unbearable. I can't stand it.
I'm empty. Lonely. Helpless. Scared. A once strong and capable person and look at me... Look at me now.
Yet no matter how much I hurt, no matter how many tears I cry, no matter how many times I look at my , the driveway, the door, hoping it's you... I will not ever reach out to you again.
We're no good for each other. Toxic? That's too strong, but we have gotten to the point where we bring out each other's worst, not best. Our cycle is apparent now. Oh, how apparent it is. But why do I crave you so?
"Goodbye my lover, Goodbye my friend, You have been the one, You have been the one for me" -- James Blunt